For the last 4 years, I have been very bitter. Bitter that I had to go to work when The Princess was only 2 years old. I was able to be home with all 3 of my boys, and I didn’t understand why I couldn’t be home with my girl. But over the years, I have received several revelations. I have talked about this several times here. But in the last month, I have come to the biggest revelation of all, which has eased the bitterness.
Heavenly Father knew I was going to have to go to back to work, and he prepared the way for me. Back in 1998, I was prompted to go back to school. I didn’t know why at the time. It took me 2 years, another child, and 2 carpal tunnel surgeries, but I made it through. I got my Bachelor’s degree.
And then I didn’t use it.
But, when it was time that I had to go back to work, I had a degree to use. I didn’t have to go and work at Wal-mart for minimum wage. I didn’t have to work nights or weekends. I was able to get a job that paid a decent wage and had decent hours. And then I was able to negotiate and start doing some work at home.
My Heavenly Father prepared the way, and I listened. However, if I hadn’t listened, if I hadn’t gone back to school, I would have been much worse off. So He did His part, and I did my part. And I gave it time. Just like an apple is bitter until it is ripe, I have had enough time to let the bitterness slowly grow into understanding. And now, I feel healed.